I ask my self today why did I get out of bed for… I noticed a few days ago I was feeling like I’m heading for crash, I have mutiple illnesses to deal with on a daily. Biggest fail was I somehow heard a crack the dumb bed slats suck also sent me into complete state, aniexty attack for me I’m lacking so much confidence and struggle with my weight and the fact it was not my bed so as I sat in the shower in a complete state thinking how much I hate this and how much it takes toll mentally, I had the shakes and feeling cold,my stomach is hurling and feeling nauseated all day just to add that on top. The positive is I managed to cook tea with the help of my son, the fact I got a supportive partner, time for a Milo and to curl up and watch a movie, call it a day.